Deborah Chew

Today was fun. It snowed. I had korean bbq. The meat was on skewers, that was strange. Bibimbap. I threw snowballs and chucked ice on my mates. and threw water out the window unto khai's head. Nasi goreng kicap and teh o in a champagne glass. Sushi Go with my kind and malay music in the background. My feet were cold. My heart is warmed.

No matter how often her anxieties appear she knows she was not given a spirit of fear, but of power, love and self control. - Megan Harper Nichols (1 Tim 1:7)

My last post was only a month ago, and i'm updating already! damn!  I thought I'll add on some things to my list of things to be grateful for. - I got my assessment results back for my first assignment. It was an assignment that only 4 of us students from Malaysia had to do. Basically because we're doing a top up and only joining them in their last year of uni. It was an assignment that had to do with British legislation and British safeguarding policy. Apparently my results were better than most of the local students. And i did super last minute work. By super last minute, I mean SUPER LAST MINUTE. I'm talking about uploading my assignment at 11:58pm when it was due at 12am. I'm talking about starting the 2500 word essay with 20 hours before 12am. I'm talking about working on the essay while on a 4 hour train ride from Cheltenham to Cambridge, with a transfer at London Paddington to Kings Cross. I'm talking about fitting in a dumpling session with my ho

I may continue my previous serious of Jesus > Religion someday.... but for now. I am now in the UK, on the first day of my 3rd week of Uni. Its been an absolute buzz of activity and I have honestly been loving it lots. The amount of independence and control I have comes as very new and is a welcome change. It does feel really strange though, I have no constraints apart from the ones I set for myself. Basically, it feels strange to be a full on adult (apart from the fact that the money I use is not mine but I'm thrifty with it nonetheless) I am the type who is attracted to novelty and new experiences, so moving here has been nothing short of exciting. There are so many friendships and new connections with people being made. Academic wise, I know it's going to be so challenging but I love the subjects I have this semester and the lecturers and tutors are really lovely. I have been feeling extremely blessed since my arrival and thought i'll make a gratitude list of

This is a copy paste intro from my previous post. The contents following this intro will be from the second chapter of the book.  [So I've been reading this book called Jesus > Religion by Jefferson Bethke. You may know him by his viral video on YouTube which you can watch here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY The book is essentially all about what it says on the front cover: Why He (Jesus) is so much better than trying harder, doing more, and being good enough.  I am in love with this book for how many BURNS it gives to many Christians (including me!) always been a fan of "oh snap" moments ;) For my own benefit and for others, I will be typing out portions from this book that I resonate with and want a place where I can document it for easy access. ] -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------   Chapter: Two Title: Saying Nothing New I had been a Christ

So I've been reading this book called Jesus > Religion by Jefferson Bethke. You may know him by his viral video on YouTube which you can watch here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY The book is essentially all about what it says on the front cover: Why He (Jesus) is so much better than trying harder, doing more, and being good enough.  I am in love with this book for how many BURNS it gives to many Christians (including me!) always been a fan of "oh snap" moments ;) For my own benefit and for others, I will be typing out portions from this book that I resonate with and want a place where I can document it for easy access.  This is from the first chapter under the the title "Finding the real Jesus" The first 6 months of my life with Jesus, I was alone and guessing how to "do" the Christian faith. I spent a lot of nights in my dorm room reading my Bible - which was better than going out and partying like I did the sem bef

This season really has been so stretching. Stretched in fulfilling responsibilities at work, at church and at home. Stretched in hearing and obeying God's voice. Stretched in denying myself. I love that I'm growing, but boy it sure is uncomfortable. And there's still so much more. Lord, let me be so aware of You. When I find it hard to love. When I find it hard to follow your voice. Thank You for your joy that is my strength. I can do all things through You!

On my own Weak, frail, unable Turn the table Frustration, Disapointment Stress, Tension _________________________ I see Your arms open wide Nothing from You I hide Comfort, peace, joy You are my strength. I trust You.

I am fully aware that this post will make me sound like a loser but isn't that what this blog is for anyway.... Here is where I splurt all my emo-ness because I don't like splurting my emo-ness on people in real life. Ok so here is my problem, and actually most people who know me will know what it is. (I guess i do splurt my emo-ness to ppl irl...)  And it's beginning to feel more and more serious. I'm lacking motivation to do anything. Like, anything at all. Excluding eating, sleeping and watching shows. and washing dishes. I like washing dishes. But ya. work? lazy. talking to people? lazy. exercise? rock climbing is slightly tempting but still, lazy. reading to become more informed/intelligent? lazy. DEBS WHY DEBS STOP DEBS HOW WILL U PROGRESS IN LIFE ya so pray for me and if u have similar experience and have overcome this terrible sad state and have good advice pls text me or smth thx