thinking about thinking

I've been thinking a lot. Because I've been doing less.

And I've been thinking about how limited my thinking is. In most questions that I ask myself, I can pursue the topic into a few layers, and then my knowledge stops. And I normally don't pursue further.
Mostly because I like feeling at ease and free of worries, and thinking more and pursuing hard questions give me a headache.

So what shall I do?

for now I'll stop thinking and just get back to working on my literature review because I kindof need to do that in order to graduate.

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